The sun streams in through our skylights. Many spaces in my kitchen and living room are drenched in gold. I sit on my favourite bench in the house, watching the dogs nap. The little one is on her cycle and as I sip my tea, I think of all the things I want.
I want to keep this immaculate home and bake all these wonderful cakes. I want to wake up early and steam fluffy idlies to be eaten with coconut chutney. I want to cook these luscious vegan gulab jamuns. I want to do vegetable painting with M. I want to walk the dogs on unexplored paths of joy. Sigh. I did do many of these things over the past few weeks. But now I long for them more than ever.
I long for them because I have less than a week of my vacation left! Boohoo. If you ask my husband though, I have had enough holidays! And yeah, I cribbed about my lack of intellectual stimulation while at home, too. So better not to ask him anything!
I want to be a homemaker. I want to go out to work. I want to earn. I want to grow things. I want everything, all at once, all together.
Can you tell me how?