Fear October 9, 2009

Tomorrow,  when I am gone,

perhaps you will know…

what my words actually meant.

Or maybe they are to be twisted, mutilated,

turned back against me,

Just because they are not mine.

Tomorrow, when I am gone,

perhaps you will know what my love is

it is not kind, neither gentle

I am no angel, by dying I hope to be one.

Tomorrow , when I am gone,

I will show you my wounds

all my pains, my failures…

you can decide then, whether to love me or not.

By then I might be too far, thats what I fear..

I fear… I fear… I fear..

And therefore I cry.

Cheated July 22, 2009

The ant, unafraid

walks into honey-laden

Palaces of death…

Let me be June 9, 2009

I have no friend, I have no family

the world fails to amaze me;

Your talk is sweet, your words charming;

yet…

Can you not let me be?

I am not a poet, I do not see beauty

I am mundane and in that I thrive,

All I want is a little sunshine and drops

of rain….

Can you not let me be?

I have no need for words, I strew them about

carelessly, like my ideas, the vagabonds;

I know no rhyme, nor reason

Please

Can you not let me be?

My world is alive, it is not imagined

I exist because all nature is

for the simple reason- I am not

dead.

Can you not let me be?

I know no god nor prince

I know no magic, I have no dream

I’ve learned to give myself

hugs

Just to let me be…

Sunrise, Sunset… February 24, 2008

Every night I shed tears
Every morning I smile
I hope I fly free
Before my nights get too long,
And there’s no smile or song.